Cris,
Death, insanity, incarceration or recovery! Soberity bought me a home, family, a return to the Norton world and a career. Screw the social life and as far as pride goes, that's whats killing you. Humility is what you need. Google it! Losing that bike may be a wakeup call. But I don't think so cause that whole "cost me my home, my business, and my marriage" thing didn't seem to help, or maybe that wasn't your fault, ya, that's the ticket, not my fault. In order to have anything real in this world, you have to give it all up. That's Recovery. Your either ready or your not. You don't sound ready. If you don't make the choice, it will be made for you, loosing the "beloved Norton, marrige, home" for example. Living with the parents? Christ, they need to get real too and kick your drunken ass to the curb. Boo f-ing hoo! This may sound black and white, probably mostly black but that's life, kid. If you don't get it then you are wasting your life and our time.
Oh, Keep us posted on the location of that police auction.